this is a test

mostly just to see if this thing still works! it's been forever since i wrote anything, and a lot of that is because i haven't had much in the way of inspiration of late. also, with time the desire to churn everything out through the keyboard fades. all the miserable thoughts i might have start to lose the need to be expressed the longer i am in therapy. it doesn't feel yet like i am past the point where depression is a risk anymore, and i certainly haven't made any breakthrough that has magically made me fart sunshine. but therapy is such a good thing - it's giving me a place where i can spit out all of my c0ncerns and worries and sadnesses with someone else, and that almost negates the original point of this blog.

and so i am considering what to do with it from here. i have enjoyed writing. a lot. thus, i think from this point forward i'll likely have sporadic mental health and emotional musings, but that this will either become a home for my general philosophical ramblings or nothing more than a relic that documents essentially the final quarter of 2008. only time will tell.